school holidays can be boring. especially if you have nothing to do and have no job. i feel like killing myself every single day cause im bored to death. apart from helping mom clean the house, i use the computer and just rot at home doing nothing. i want someone to talk to badly, i want cash so i can spent on useless stuff and get scolded. i wanna do so much things that people dont give a damn about. right now, im talking crap that even i dont understand. fuck this paragraph.

so, eversince i came back. i realise that some people change. the song up there ^^ really describe my situation now. gosh, i really want school to resume ASAP cause i miss friends badly. really really badly. i hate rotting at home, and do nothing. i just feel like sharing all the problems i have right now with them. cause, they're the only one that understands it. its weird cause i've never been in this situation before and it'll feel awesome when someone guides me along, example Suriani. i told her what my problem is, and her advice really helped and now i'm ok a little bit. bt its not the same. i wanna talk to her, face to face. so that she/they can feel how i'm really feeling. aaahh, patience patience. as much as i want the extended holiday, i still wanna meet my friends ASAP. cause they're the only ones that make me smile and feel like i'm on cloud9.