these few days, i've been feeling extremely sad. i dont know what the exact reasons were, but if im not wrong, its cause of studies, stress, friends, and lots of negative thoughts. i really got no one to turn to. i had no choice but to turn to the person i used to hate. after some advices, to me, it didnt help. it makes it worst. then, i turned to Qistina. thanks so much, babe for listening. the thing is, you may see me smiling, laughing my ass off all the time. but thats just a distraction to take my mind off from the things im sad about. huge sigggghhhh. i press 'repeat' on the song Fall For You by Secondhand Serenade, and i cried. call me EMO. thanks to Qistina and Aqil for accompanying me in one way or another. :D

went out with the WestCoast CoffeeBeanBaristas(?) yesterday for Raya. i was kinda excited at first but couldnt care less after the third or second last house cause ive got blisters and i was dropdead tired. today stayed at home the whole day cause GoodanX was coming. their theme this year? Pink&Black. haha, they all looked so good. and i hate first brother for distracting him! sheeeesh. xD
combinedscience tomorrow, and i just completed, well kinda, mugging for Chemistry. well, lets not say mug. i looked through the notes for Chemistry. better? yes. i realised that i actually forgot lots of things. example Atomic Structure, and those Simple Distillation, Crystalisation thingy. hmm, gonna look through that again. oh, and Physics? i looked through halfway. well, no matter how hard i mug, i'm still gonna fail right? duh.

i really dont wanna fight with you. but everytime i looked at you, you show that face which i really hate. and when i sort of, angry at you. you'll be like, "what did i do wrong?" it might be a small matter to you, but its not to me cause i treat my friends like pure diamonds. and i dont wanna lose you guys cause you guys are the best, and very hard to get. but c'mon, im sick and tired of your fucking attitude. please?