Dear Self,

You're 17 years old now and you have finally completed you studies in Secondary School. You're currently waiting for your results and is not looking for a job. You're 'claiming' that you're still in the holiday mood but lets just admit, you're plain lazy right? Haha. Self, alot has happened in the year you're seventeen, 2011. Let's go from the start of the year till now. When 2011 started, you can't wait for it to end cause you can't wait to end your O's. You also have set your mindset to fully focus on studies and not anything else. However, on the 17th January, you lost one of your loved ones. It was tragic. It was the first time you cried in school, in front of your teacher that is. It was horrible and you wished it wasn't real. But, things can't be undone and you accepted faith. Right now as you're typing this, you could still remember the moment you kissed Abg Madir goodbye for the last time. That moment you can't forget. From that day, you felt like your world has crushed. You dont look forward to school anymore and you started to focus more on death and getting closer to Allah. Which is an awesome thing. Yes, it affected your studies but it's cool. You have the mindset where things in this world don't matter anymore and you're trying to gain things that will benefit you later in the afterlife.

As months goes by, you're starting to get back to life. On your birthday, you were all excited to perform your mini pilgrimage at Mekkah the next day. On the 11th March, your friends came to send you off. You weren't thinking about a single thing back home when you were there, cause your whole family was there. You had the time of your life and you felt so thankful for the biggest opportunity. Also, feelings started to come together and cupid shot him. You should know who we're talking about here, right? ;) When you're back home, you couldn't stop thinking about him. You even began stalking him to know more. Eventhough you found results, well he wasn't meant to be. And as you're typing now, you still kinda have feelings for him still. But, I bet he doesn't remember you at all.

On the 8th April, it was your first day to start wearing hijab. It was your decision to start wearing because you felt that it's time. It was also one of your childhood aims and Alhamdulillah you've achieved it. You've also got support from family and friends, which is also a plus. You gotta admit, you have that tad bit regret sometimes but you looked on the positive side, its actually a must for us girls to cover up and you're fine with your decision. Covering yourself is one of the best decision you've ever made, seriously.

Anyway, on 1st July, your precious niece was born. It was an exciting day for you because on the exact same day, you had your prelims and was rushing when you ended your paper. You initially had no clue at first but once you reached home, you were told to change and head to the hospital. When you reached, you were told that your sister has safely delivered a babygirl. You were sooo happy and wished Abg Madir was there. But you know he was, spiritually. When you first laid eyes on that precious baby, thoughts of alot of things started to play on your mind. Abg Madir, life, how big her eyes were, whose face does she follows. She was precious! Then you accompanieed your sister for 3 days in the hospital because no one else could. You also got the opportunity to take care of the niece most of the time, which is great. :)

Now, you're living with your sister and niece. At first you were kinda bumped that you couldn't live with your parents, seperated, at 17. But, you looked on the brighter side. To accompany your sister, who longs to live in her house she bought with Abg Madir and wants to bring up Alya in it. And also on the plus side, you got your own room! But you gotta admit, you miss your parents when the night gets lonely because you're used to them staying up late right? Right.

There, this is your 17 year old now typing this entry. Many things may happen but it'll be too long of a post. Hope after you've read this post, you'll still remember what happened in the year 2011. Good day ahead ;)