You think I dont feel ashamed when people ask me whether I'm schooling and I have to say no?
You think I dont feel ashamed when people ask me whether I'm working and I have to say no?
You think I'm not ashamed when people ask me what I'm doing with my life right now and I have to say nothing?

I'm tired of people giving me faces when they heard my answers. Just because I'm not working, schooling or doing something good with my life, it doesn't give you the right to judge me okay. Yes, your expression do hurt, it hurt deep. It made me feel worthless actually. I have my own reasons, but obviously it wasn't a good enough excuse for some people. I have dreams too, I really do but that doesn't mean I don't have a chance to pursue it just because I'm not doing anything to achieve it NOW right? How shallow can you guys' minds be? Gosh , eventhough I didn't show how hurt I was by your words/facial expression, my heart did shattered you know. But, what's the use of telling since obviously you don't even care about others' feelings.

I guess I'll just keep 'the true reason' to myself. InsyaAllah Allah will guide me through if my intentions are right, Amin. As for you guys, congratulations for making me lost respect for you.

ps: If you think I stay at home and just 'shake leg', I just have one thing for you. Dosa fitnah itu lebih besar daripada dosa membunuh.  :)

Peace be upon you.