Sometimes I may look like the happiest person in the world. 

Sometimes I may look like nothing is wrong with me.

I may smile and laugh all the time. 

Make jokes like my life is perfect.

Its not. I hate to get all soft but to be honest, I'm like that.

I put a brave/strong front, only to have a soft heart.

I wish I could be stronger.

I wish I could ignore.

I wish I could be happy.

Happy like I was 3 years ago.

Happy like WE were 3 years ago.

May Allah guide me. Amin.