I've finally given this space a new look. Well, not really new but just a change of colors here and there hehe. Been busy with school lately. Basically I only get to enjoy life after 7pm, since thats the time I reach home. And the things you can do at 7pm isn't much. You basically just eat dinner, relax and then get ready to sleep. And that actually repeats for about 3 months, and another 3 months coming soon oh gosh. But its alright, I keep telling myself to enjoy the moment. Basically I'm left with a few more months of becoming a student. And as of now, I think the only time left of me becoming a student, ever. Since I'm not planning to further my studies currently, so yeah the more I should enjoy it right huhu.

As of lately, I've been very emotional. Hah, I dont know what happened but the feels are definitely real and here to stay. One moment I'm happy, then the next I'm cranky, sad, feel like crying, angry, irritated, feel like screaming, and all sorts of stuffs. I try my hardest to hold it in. I hope I did a good job at it though.

Dont you just hate it when you put in effort into something, and others just dont seem to do the same? I'm not saying this from only one experience or occasion. Its from the many that made me feel like giving up. Made me feel like I ain't worth it, we ain't worth ya time. I'm as busy as ya'll but the fact that no one tries to even make themselves free, well that kinda hurt. Try being in my shoe, in our shoes. But hey, like I've said. Dah malas. Maybe this is a chance for me to be alone, have some alone time, make myself happy, be independent. Maybe this is why Allah made things to be this way. Afterall, we're all gonna die alone right meh.

And don't say we didn't try.